Well, it has been a crazy March! I haven't had a minute to myself in weeks. Finally, this Saturday I could take a little holy relaxation! That is probably why I am up so late because I just don't want this free time to end! So, anyway, I think a post is in order. Between school, community, and prayer there has been nothing but sleep in the middle! However, I really feel very called right now to sacrifice and suffering as the future of religious life and I am happy to suffer and sacrifice because of fatigue, generosity, and zeal.
My community has been talking a lot about the future lately and I feel compelled to share some of my insights. First, I am really blessed to live in a community where I feel I can share my own feelings and thoughts without judgement and while knowing that although not everyone agrees with me we all respect one another. There really is a spirit of fraternal charity and the work of grace in our everyday conversations with one another. At the same time, I think we are at a point where we have to be challenged and challenge one another to be the religious women we are called to be. A sister recently told me, "Your religious life is your ONLY religious life." You only get one and you are the only one who gets to live that particular life. It was so amazing to hear someone verbalize that calling in such a profound way. I don't know what is ahead for me but God has given me this religious life at this time for a particular reason - and the same is true for everyone else.
That very simple thought makes me feel extremely personally responsible for the future of religious life in my congregation. What am I doing that furthers God's mission in the world? How am I building up the Kingdom of God? How am I witnessing to the relationship I have with Jesus to everyone I meet? Am I really living the religious life I desire and God desires for me?
Now I will be busy all April answering these questions. Holy Spirit - enlighten me!