Today I had a great experience of freedom. Sometimes I watch the kids running like wild people at recess and I think - wow - that must be so much fun! haha. Sometimes I play a little bit too!
After school today I went to the store to do some of the food shopping for the convent. When I had paid and was on my way outside the sky just opened up and poured. It was beautiful but everything was getting wet and I was rushing to try to get everything into the trunk of the car. As I was getting a workout with my groceries I was hit with this great feeling of freedom. My veil and habit were soaking wet, I was alone, and the rain was so beautiful - it was great! At first I was thinking oh no I'm soaked right through, my shoes are getting messed up, my hair is totally wet... and then all my cares just melted away and it was freedom.
When I got back to the convent it was still pouring so I got to do it all over again! After that I went in to prayers and dinner with the nuns. I was so tired and I had a tough day in school - good but challenging - and I was ready to go right to sleep... My superior knew this had been a crazy week for me so she left a candy bar in my room as a little treat. I felt like a kid... in a good way. I felt like I had gone out to play, been taken care of, and was being sent off to bed for the night. It was refreshing and comforting.
I don't usually relate well to the whole child of God thing, probably because my own childhood was so tumultuous, but today I felt very much cared for as a dear daughter of His and I am very grateful for that blessing.