Sometimes it is good to take stock of life... almost always it doesn't measure up to expectations though, haha. These past few days I have been at workshops and I have a wicked cold so I have been like a ghost in the convent. They see my shadow move around... to get tea, sometimes venturing to get food... but not much else. To be honest... I miss the nuns! I miss Jesus in Chapel!
Now, I wouldn't be such a ghost if the circumstances were not out of my control, however, it does make me realize how important those parts of my life are... and how easily I can forget them. Tonight when I ventured downstairs out of my bedroom to get some tea for my cough I thought... how long has it been since I've been in the community room? The answer is a few days. I hate that! But I've been sick and leaving early and coming home late from workshops. It isn't always like this.
Tonight though I found myself thinking... is there anyone out there? It felt quite lonely to not have seen anyone in a few days. I don't know how some sisters do it; living in apartments or doing jobs that keep them travelling frequently. I would find that so difficult. I love my nuns. I love living in community and I love living with Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament.
We always joke. When someone is sick the nuns always say, "Stay in the same temperature." It really translates into, "Please stay in your room... we don't want your germs." That's where I am right now... I've been exiled so I'll just have to wait it out. I know the nuns will welcome me back without my germs as soon as I get rid of them.