Well... here is the update... I've lost it all. There is no retrieving any of my information on my broken flash drive. I have been spending quite a bit of time trying to make up for so much lost work so I haven't been writing too much.
I bet many of my kids had a little breakdown before they had to come back to school after a whole week off. I mean, it's daunting to have time to be free and then know how much work is ahead of you. I had the same experience right before school started back up again this week! While I stayed pretty calm for a few days after the flash drive incident when I went to school to get prepared to teach this past week I was very very upset.
When I told the kids what happened their first question was, "Did you cry, Sister?" The answer is YES. It was so overwhelming to lose so much work. I didn't even know where to begin again. I had everything planned for the year. What I realized though was that God was shaking me up a little bit. Everything has been going to well for me but it has been due to my reliance on myself and not on Him. I don't think HE broke my flash drive, haha, but He did use it for His own purposes.
I really think that feeling uncomfortable is a sign for me of God working in my life. Anytime I get too comfortable with myself, my apostolate, my prayer, my community; I see God throw some loops into my perfect world so that I can practice trusting Him and allowing Him to be in control of my life. I have a really hard time doing that. Discomfort lets me know that I'm on the right path. That discomfort forces me to be more intentional in the way I live religious life and the way I serve God's people. It's a great tool for me to grow.
So, while my lost flash drive is a huge setback in my schoolwork, it is a forward movement in relationship with God. I'm trying to remind myself of that as I work through the weekend. Thank God it snowed and I wouldn't have been able to go out anyway!
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