Actually... it's not - but I like to think it is. I guess it's human nature to a certain extent to see the world around us in terms of how it affects us personally. I've been doing that a lot lately. I think, first, because of necessity. I've been having to do a lot of reflecting at this time of the year so I've been a little focused on myself. Secondly, I've been under a lot of stress and because of that I've been looking at all MY work, MY school, MY prayer, MY charge, MY time.
It's strange how something small can suddenly jerk you back into perspective. For me, today, it was the simple fact that someone I care about hasn't answered an email from me for two days! I know - how impatient - two days is nothing... but it was important to me. Then I got an email from someone else about that person and I just felt my heart sink. All of the sudden I realized that I was being really self-centered. I couldn't rejoice with the other person because I was so caught up in myself.
It stinks to realize that it's not about me... it stinks to realize that I've been so full of pride and selfish. But I'm thankful it happened. I'm thankful I can see it now. Perspective really makes all the difference in the things that happen. I'm going to definitely take this to prayer now that school is ended for the holy days to come.